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Genesis 1:29-30

God also said, 'Look, I have given you every seed-bearing plant on the surface of the entire earth and every tree whose fruit contains seed. this food will be for you, for all the wildlife of the earth, for every bird of the sky, and for every creature that crawls on the earth - everything having the breath of life in it. I have given every green plant for food.' And it was so.

My Thoughts This Evening

So how many times does someone post on their “inspirational” blog or Instagram about when they are feeling wretched and uninspired? I imagine people do post at those times, but it is obviously way more difficult and not as “fun” like the blog was supposed to be. Well, I am a hypocrite because I am feeling better about my “journey” hah than I have been the past week or so. But I confess to the world that I have NOT been eating vegan since about three days after I started one or two weeks ago. In order to defend my frail ego I’ll say that normally when I make a promise in my heart I want to keep it and I don’t normally break them/feel guilty if I do, but in honesty I’m sure I do not stick to my standards way more than I think I do. Personally I have a really hard time finding a balance with a lot of things in life. I want to be extreme and do things “the right way” and I love the excitement of that. I feel good when I’m “on track”. Not just with eating a vegan diet either.

Anyway a week or so ago I was thinking about that and also feeling deprived of anything not spinach or apples since it’s rather difficult eating raw vegan at school (although I did do so last year for several months yay me), and I think it may be wise to start slow. I need to learn balance and not just be a crazy yoyo person. I feel guilty saying that like I’m letting people down, but anyway I definitely want to eat more raw (as far as it depends on me) once I get out of school. But not to the point that it hinders my relationships with other people.

Another point. I had a rugby practice today (pre-off-season) and things like that always help me want to eat better. Takes away my appetite in a healthy way. I tried out for the basketball team earlier this year and I ate pretty well during that time. It was slightly out of fear, because I didn’t want to if I knew I would regret it later. Kind of like the fear of God, I think. Some people may have a problem with the fear of God concept, but it makes sense to me. For example if you have a teacher who is very buddy-buddy with their students, the students don’t have as much of the “fear” of authority and don’t learn as much. That’s honestly how it works, even though you may not like it. Teachers who are friends are great, but if you want to stretch yourself, you need someone who is going to make you uncomfortable, and that’s where that healthy “fear” comes in.

Also I've been watching some of the Winter Olympics this weekend! If any of you haven’t been it’s worth watching. Gives me a sort of pride in the world. If I ever have kids I’d like that to be something we watch together.

Goodnight !

As a deer longs for streams of water, so I long for You, God. I thirst for God, the living God. When can I come and appear before God? Psalm 42:1-2

The kingdom of heaven is like a treasure, buried in a field, that a man found and reburied. Then in his joy he goes and sells everything he has and buys that field. Matthew 13:44